Morning Party People,
Ok I didn’t write a blog yesterday. Not happy about it but there it is. I didn’t make time for it in the morning thinking I would write when I got home, but ended up going to a mic with Hamel in Fort Collins and didn’t get back till midnight. So while I’m bummed I didn’t write, I am happy that I was productive throughout the whole day.
At this point I have three chores or exercises that I have to do everyday. At least one of them anyways. Writing, open mic, and workouts. So far for the past week I’ve done at least one if not two of those things everyday. My goal is to do all three of those three times a week. The path is starting to form in front of me.
Another goal of mine is to try shrooms with in the next month. I’ve had a bit of one a few months back but didn’t really feel anything so I’d like to try again. I’m curious about the experience as it relates to the ego and what it can help or hinder. If things go well, I’d like to try DMT before the end of the year.
In case anyone is worried about all of this, I get it. I’m concerned or scared too. That’s why I’m planning to do this with friends who have already done this before and who know how to trip with people on their first go around. I see this as an experiment and not like some miracle pill that’s going to fix everything. I think understanding one’s ego is a daily struggle and takes constant observation and action to work on. I’ve been focusing on that since I left Bennett’s and I think that is what’s going to lead me to where I want to go.
On a similar note, I’d like to try testosterone replacement therapy but I want to get in shape without it first. I want to push myself and see how far I can go before I start altering any chemistry. That and I’ve seen too many guys at the gym who are on it who seem like total a-holes. Like I would love to have 30’s Dave level of T which I would think would be healthy as opposed to 20’s Dave T, which would be super destructive to everything around me…Teen level T of Dave would mark the end of humanity.
Well it’s time to get this day started, thanks for checking in Party People!